I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know where to go, what to do, what the fuck to say... What is it? What can I do for you today? What can I do to put a smile on your face, what can I do to make you fucking like me!? I don't know what the hell I'm doing wrong, I just want to know, I want to know so I can fix it... I'm so sorry.... so sorry for being a waste of your time. I'm sorry I'll never amount to more than a fucking fast food employee. I'm sorry for everything, do you feel better now? Do you feel better for reducing me to this sad lost child? Do you feel like a bigger person for tearing down the facade I had tried so hard to keep up all of these years? How does it make you fucking feel? Why don;t you just reach into my chwest and tear my heart out while I watch, not stopping you because it's what you want to do? Why don;t you just walk away and leave me hear, a defensless little mess? ANYONE CAN FUCK WITH ME NOW. Anyone can use me to get what they want, becaquse I can;t just please you. You hear that? I'm a fucking slave to anyones whims. Thank you. Thank, fucking you. Is there anything else you want to do? Is there anythign else I can do for you? I'm so fucking tired of everything. I just want it ll to change. I want you to make up your mind. am I the one for you? What if there's someone else you know? What about her? She's beter than me. I'm sure she doesn;t mind wasting ehr time WALKING ALL OVER THE FUCKING EARTH JUST FOR A CHANCE TO SEE YOU. I'm sure she doesn;t make a big deal over things. I'm sure she;'s cool calm and collected. You know, I used to be liek that too. I used to know what I wanted to do, where I wanted to go. But it wasn;t what you wanted, so I changed my mind. No wI'm aimless, I've lost that smidgeon of control that I may have once had. And now it's over.

Maybe I'll just dissapear into an oblivion now. No pain, no tears... everyone can be happier. Everyone can celebrate without me, because I won;t be able to ruin it for them.

I'm so sorry to everyone... I'm sorry I couldn't be what you wanted, I'm sorry I never knew the right thing to say. I always was better at playing the giggly overly happy and energetic moron.

I'm so fucking sorry....